will blog about christmas tomorrow (tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow)

Currently waiting for Jasper to send over the stuff to me.

Love is what gives you headaches and heartaches after its been over.

PS: I AM NOT THE ONLY PERSON IN LOVE. (IN A SENSE)

Reading those pages
Reopening those wounds
Well, they were never exactly closed anyway
But it still hurts, bad
This emptiness is killing me
Robbing me of things that I thought I once knew
This uncertainty doesn't feel too good afterall
Does it?
Because being with you never left me feeling this way
But being without you did.

cliche.

This blog is freaking dead. I know sorry.
These days has been like spent going out with Sarah and spending time with Andy on those stupid swimming benches and going to the the Clinic.

I have Sean's pictures from last nights party but I guess I am just too lazy to upload.
And last night's party left me feeling too tired to actually go to church.

"Life is but a spectacle"
&shityouforknowinghowtomanipulatepeoplesowell.

You swept me off my feet once again. Is there anything more to say?

Class bbq was alright with my feet fully blistered that is. Got very few pics though.

Andy is coming back at midnight tomorrow. And he is (apparently) well-tanned and has done loads of clubbing in Aussie and also went shopping with his mates. *jealous*

PROM PICTURES!!!

Pretty doorgift! They are actually water babies.

Sec 4 council dance!

Event Banner

Tables Tables and More Tables. On screen is actually the Sec 4 pictures.

With Danielle!

With Eunice (WHY DIDN'T SHE NEED TO WEAR A DRESS!)

IN SEARCH OF BEST DRESSED MALE/FEMALE & MOST GLAMOROUS/ CHARMING. Ihadloadsmorepicturesthenthisbutlazytoupload.


Jiajie!

Joel!

Raynor!

Pei Qi! (MOST GLAMOROUS)

Ben!

Kenneth! (Most Charming)

Prom photos coming up!

Teach me how to feign happiness when I am far from it.

EDITING photos!

Day one without you was terrible with my handphone feeling cold as the steel that it was with the absence of your heart(phone) warming messages. Didn't think that it would affect me this much.

Yesterday was fun! Thanks Sarah for everything! Love your face while you unwrapped the newspapermagazine covered Xmas present. Had a lovely Henna done on my hand which lead to doctor Martin go WTH! and skipping all the exercises. Had dinner at Aunt Aud's place for a family gathering and playing Wii with ReginaAbelDadGlendon and me going hysterical. Not to mention that I was running a fever all the while and absent-mindedly left my handphone at home.

I grabbed Grandmom's phone to prank people whose number I could remember. And LIZ immediately knew that it was me by the first message she received, thanks!

Guitar lessons is the world. Can't wait for Saturday!

Time flies doesn't it? Christmas shopping is about to start I guess. The word shopping causes an adrenaline rush all over.

Tomorrow's Monday again. The beginning of yet another tedious week. Busy. Nothing much to look forward to this week I guess. Except for being terribly tortured by Dr. Martin. Why does this week feel like such a drag. CLARICE CHOO! YOU FREE ON FRIDAY? LET'S GO SWIMMING shopping.

Andy dude happy 6th. And you are flying of to Aussie soon.

Tags replied
Divya: Hey Girl! How are you?
Marilyn: When you free? You like everyday also busy sia
Vanessa: You ask Marilyn first. LOLS.
Dee: Have fun there!
Clarice: Thanks for the present. LOVES.
Annabella: But these days I no time. =( But must go down for interview.
Yu Hang: You are?
Jasper: Thanks. LOLS. You going NS soon?

Sarah owes me a digital cam!

Went out with Clarice yesterday. Thanks for the present. I finally finished Penelope after like a 7 months drag. Rollerblading was fun except for the fact that my instructor was being really mean to me. (read that Clarice)

Christmas wishlist! This is my 2nd one? All's well. But now there are way fewer things in it cause some things have been fulfilled: - laptop skin - DIGITAL CAM

ANDY!
you teaching me guitar and ending up giving up and me convincing you to play me a song which then continues with another song after I promised that I would learn seriously after that song but this cycle continues till its time for me to go home and you pinching my nose as I half-laughed at you for being so gullible
I MISS YOU! examspleasebeoversoon!

You look but not see
You hear but not listen
You touch but not feel
You eat but not taste
You breath but not smell
Enjoy the simplicity of life; seelistenfeeltastesmell

ITS one of those days you got freaking pissed by your father who is freaking unreasonable and freaking hell load of a fish head curry.

THANKS Sarah for an amazing Monday, Tuesday and 1 hour of a Wednesday. Thanks once again for inviting me over on Monday for prayer group.

Muscle Aches from head to toe. Thanks Dr. Martin

TAGS replied!
Sarah: LOLS. Male bitch = hitch? WHAT LOGIC?
Marilyn: I don't mind really to take your properties and such. Hand me the handphone.
Vanessa: Lets make Marilyn BROKE.
Annabella: I should not have mentioned your name in the first place AND I HAVE NO HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!
Cornelia: I KNOW WHAT TO GIVE YOU FOR XMAS. A SEED THAT GROWS BRAIN! Ain't I smart?
Vanessa: LOLS
Clarice: LOLS. Friday aye?
Dee: It's not your fault, seriously. Take care too. AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING ON THE COMPUTER?
Clarice: HAHA.
Annabella: But its only 5 bucks/ hour only. =(

BECAUSE you left me in a total dilemma.

ANDY jiayou! Everything's possible if you jut believe yea? (super cliche I know) 2weeks more. Hang in there.

"What is it about doctors that is so irresistible? The ability to heal? The degree and papers? The selfless service of others? In any case, I've totally been there..."
-Somebody(that I am not supposed to reveal)

HAHA.

Hey Dr. Martin, get well soon! (and stop torturing me)

Crap ole' crap.
I think I am cerarfafareruraersrdafdhrhsireerndrsdg rtraeroqrefhan aremty aoueydoanlkrjcjlkjtmdlakojkjklr. Yes, I know it is unreadable but the message is in there except it is just jumbled up with other words.

check out the boxed up area (click image to enlarge)

Well, I have gotten a new chiropractor. Anyway, his name is Dr. Martin John and he is British but most importantly he is rather cute (even my grandmother thinks so) and and apparently he is not married and and and I would be seeing him 4 times a week, namely Monday Tuesday Thursday Saturday. And and and and and he said that he would not be going easy on me. Thanks Dr. Martin. But all in all he is this really really friendly guy that is 180cm tall.

Because she fell in love with him all over again.

Cornelia I miss you. Eunice I miss you. Sarah I miss you. Zhiyi I MISS YOU. ANNABELLA I MISS YOU. I MISS CLASS 2G! SOMEBODY!!!!

GUITAR classes rocked! &iamcountrysick (according to Sarah)

Worked at nessa's mum's nursery. The kids were CUTE! I swear you can forgive them for whatever they did when you look into those innocent-looking eyes. But they are terrible, I don't remember being that naughty. The food was fab though. All's well.

REPLY to tags

Cornelia: I MISS YOU =(
Clarice: When you free text me?
Sarah: Guitar was FUN!
Huizhen: Hello!
Zhilin: Ok.
Olivia: Hi double blue shit XD
Dee: Sorry super late. Happy 4th too babe.
Sarah: Sorry. Lazy update. Haha.
Vanessa: EVIL!
Renee: Thanks girl!
Marilyn: What date?
Annabella: I go pick with you one day!
Sarah: HELLO!
Annabella: Nope. It was an xmas present from my aunt cause she saw that I really liked it. I go buy bag with you one of these days?

Was on the phone with Dee after hanging up on Marilyn and Vanessa. Consulting him with regards to an antidote for mixed emotions. Sometimes I get this feelings which I choose to deny and hastily hide beneath my cover, while other times it has proven to me that this feelings were apparent and forthcoming. Well, I guess sometimes it takes more than logic/reasoning/theory to solve one's innermost thoughts and emotions, so until then I am struggling to stay afloat while trying to find this answer.
this emptiness is killing me faster than a sword can.
Goodnight world!

BANGKOK!
Captions:
1. Thai Airport
2. Lovely hotel room
3. Me trying on weird glasses
4. Ambience @ Leelawadee
5. Waiters @ Leelawadee
6. Deciding on what to eat @ Leelawadee
7. ITS winter!
8. Glendon with MASKS
9. Interior of van on saturday
10. Downstairs of the hotel
11. Collecting our luggage at the airport

Things I bought:
5 shirts
1 pair of Levi's
1 Adidas bag
1 Kappa sports shoes
1 Kappa Jacket
1 Watch
1 Clock
Pairs of earrings
Sets of key chains
4 bottles of nail polish
2 bottles of lip gloss
Thai fragrance pouches
Some anti-blister thing for my shoes
3 Cashmere shawls
1 Belt
1 Big storage bag for random things

DEAD depressed.

Car Lift! Photos take in/outside of lift
Wondering how it works? You just drive into the lift then the lift will bring the car to the respective level.

BEWARE! Long post ahead!

Saturday & Sunday was fun in the Sun with cousins. Well, we have all finished our exams and its time to partaye. Saturday was mahjong session at Aunt Aud's place and me fighting with Glendon over the remote. Sunday was Church. Sean was like showing me all the different alcoholic drinks and I was in a daze. Ice wine, red wine, champagne, white wine, barcadni, rin, vodka and whats not. Followed by collection of Air TICKETS! *flashes broad wide smile*

Monday was crapping with Sarah and Valerie as school was boring. Mini Olympics. After that, went shopping for guitar at peninsular and bugis. Bought a Maestro at 180 in the end, solid wood top and such. I LOVE YOU vanessa baby. Baking on wednesday!

Today was yet another crapping day. Went Gym with Annabella after school. But we weren't really in the mood so we left early and decided to loook for Annabella's dress for her cousin's wedding.

DRAINED both emotionally and physically.

PICTURES!

I've got questions. I need answers.

Phone chats with Andy is the loves! especially when you are hald dead on your bed looking through the ikea magazine.

Andy: whats on your christmas wishlist?
Me: *names a whole long list of things*
Andy: so which one do you want me to get you?
Me: All. (:
Andy: -.-

The only person that can brighten up a terrible day.

Things to look forward to during holidays:
GUITAR lessons with SARAH!
IKEA shopping with ANNABELLA!
GYM with ANNABELLA!
SHOPPING date with my lovely MARILYN and VANESSA!
OUT with JANICE!
NEW laptop!
COUNCIL camps!
WISHLIST from ANDY!
ROLLERBLADING lessons with CLARICE!
and many more...
this would be a great holiday. YAY!

SUGAR RUSH with Cornelia is equals to a crazyyyy second reccess! AUSTON made me cry. Kidding.

Life's been pretty good to me these days. I guess. If i choose to omit those parts of which I was quite pissed and all.

Sarah this is a warning to you. You better return me my brain of which you have stolen from me when it dropped out on monday!!! AHHH!!

All these are just a plain facade.

Your voice cracked as you heard those words
Staring blankly into space
You gave me a model answer
Tring to play it cool
I know you're not fine
And I am really sorry about it
Thanks for the text
I really appreciated it
Till then, I would see you again (:

Cliche!

I look at you with disgust in my eyes
What fills me is disappointment
For who you have actually become
And who you have turned out to be

Studying with Annabella while munching on cheese+fries( not cheese fries) and finishing a medium and large coke simultaneously. Both fattening and far from enriching.

Pe was great today. Did the chanbara thing with Sarah and we both ended up laughing our heads off. My tummy hurts! Sarah says that I look different with the helmet on and such. So we were practically just whacking and whacking each other while laughing hard. FUN. Took out my helmet and was drenched in prespiration.

Chinese was pretty cool. Was talking to Gary Vanessa and Zhiyi about something which I forgot. But all I know that it was really funny cause I remembered laughing. STM. Hmm... better go ask Gary before I turn old.

End.

Thanks babe. Received your message at 12:01. Ditto all that you have said (:

Mid Autumn is lanterns and mooncakes.


Celebration in school.

Lovely mooncakes with wonderful box designs from Aunt Aud.

Somewhere over the rainbow!~

"stop calling me silly toad!"
"WHY! *whines*"
"cause you are insulting the toad"
I love my boy. He always make my day.

Today's been really bad except for gym with Annabella which managed to cheer me up quite alot. I hate hypocrites. I hate hypocrites. Lets start. If you didn't like him in the first place why are you letting him do all this? I bet this is more than you duty of being "nice", and are you actually nice to begin with? I don't see the point. I don't see why things have gone this far. I am sick of having to act all happy and all when I am with you when buried in me is resentment. Yes, maybe I do not want to lose this year long relationship but maybe, just maybe, its time for me to let go cause I really can't seem to stand it anymore. Yes, I am talking about you.

There are so many things running through my head right now and I have got to tell someone. Real bad.

Because you are no longer the girl I met 8 months ago. You have changed. You have changed to become somone unrecognisable.

Sarah is my stoning partner in chinese. We rest our heads on our hands and stare at the board while counting down for the period to end. (:

Oh god, I am emo. Plus, happy. Don't ask me how that is actually possible.

Its quite obvious that I am rather pissed lately. My monosyllabic answers or my sarcasm. Or maybe its just me trying to hide my emotions from you while laughing away or just keeping quiet. In other words, I am ()*()*# pissed. Be it project work or anything you said just five minutes ago.

Annabella went to cut her hair after school at 85 before going to grab the mooncake for class plus some Durian puff. It totally lifted up my mood.

Girl, if you are gonna let them influence you to do all these things you obviously know are wrong and not do anything about it. Well, if you are not going to do anything then how would I be able to help you? Think about it.

During Geog:
"CORNE! YOUR BRAIN IS ERODING"
"No its not"
"Cause there is nothing left to erode"
"..."

I love corny jokes with corne. No pun intended. I fell in love with puns. YAY!

"Andy, you can tune a guitar but you can't tuna(tune a) fish! Puns much intended"
"where on Earth did you get that?"
"wiki. I fell in love with puns. *beams widely*"
God I am insane.

Today was yet another less than perfect day. Got pretty pissed over certain issues. Thanks for your understanding people. Thanks for stepping in my shoes. And Clarice it is not on, cause I can sue you for assault for that. *laughs* It is through this project work where you either break or gain new relationships. You get to know people better.

Gary owes me a new keyboard. Period.

Pictures from Saturday






You do not understand. I don't expect you to. Cause you will never.

I can't exactly say that the sept holidays went well as many things happened. Received loads of bad news, too much for me to handle maybe.

Anyway, I am currently looking for pilates lessons. Hope that it will help. Called up my Chiropractic Clinic just to realise that it was my doctor on the line and I wasn't exactly very polite. Blimey.

Sitting on the stairway at Aunt Aud's place wuth rittersport in hand and watching anime while it is pouring outside. Heavenly

My job is 3 quad confirmed. Will only let you people know when it is fully confirmed. Currently I am applying for another job I saw online. Hope it will come through fine.

The anime NANA is depressing. It makes you lose hope in love, its overly unrealistic. But its an anime afterall. Been watching it since 9 in the morning.

How selfish can a person get till you have to write a 4 page composition to demean him?

Had a wonderful time with Annabella yesterday.
Supposed to meet her at a bus stop at 10 and we both ended up at different bus stops with the same description. Anyway, worked out and had sushi after that. Jealous? Went to Sunplaze Park and saw choir people playing amazing race. Went to Mandy's house after that before returning home. Point is I GOT A JOB! And I am very glad about it. Will fill you people about it when everything is confirmed.

Please don't merge. Please DON'T. I am currently trying to will my 2 ulcers to not merge into 1 or I will die. I will seriously DIE.

Your callus-filled hands; you are willing to give up anything for your passion.
Your disheveled hair; you are too lazy to even use the comb.
HAha. I rock at making conclusions. Stop it Andy, you know that the second statement is true although you only think the first is.

All I wanna tell you now is that I miss you. I miss you real badly.

She looks at you and cracks into a smile.

She is ecstatic. Well, went to Comex today after church to look for my tablet pc. M800 Toshiba turned out really unappealing (shall be kind and not use ugly). Fell in love with a HP tx2022Au which was really pretty and the price was at a mere 1.6k. However, all the specs were great except for the processor so decided not to get it in the end. Yes, I am still regretting it but my father was strongly against my buying of that model. My current budget has plummeted from a 4k to a 3k.

Had a meaningful Teacher's Day celebration. Spent most of my time in the gallery though. Wendy and I ate practically all of the remainding grapes left from the game and shared the mentos. I have to admit that Joel did a really good job. Went to movies with grandmom, Sean turned up for dinner instead as he had tuition. Money not enough 2 was your typical cliche Singapore film, however I do have to admit that it was really touching and saying that at least half the cinema was crying is a total understatement.

You've grown
You've gotten a new mask
One that shows that you are happy
When you are actually sad
One that hides your disappointment
All too well

I'm strong on the outside but not all the way through.

To have you skip lessons to console me for 28mins. Priceless. Yes, I am still sad. Yes, I am still depressed. Yes, I am still moody.

School was pretty alright, or maybe it is just me in autopilot. I am officially broke till the end of the month. 7 bucks left. Great. Gonna call up believer's music right now.

An empty vessel makes the most noise. Don't forget that.

Dropped by at Dee's place on Friday just to realize that all his guy friends where there.

Had Chinese oral today, it was pretty alright. After that went shopping for teacher's day presents. Its 100 of everything and currently I have $110 worth of toblerone lying on my
kitchen table. Jealous?

Art Serve!

Mug design

100 stress balls+100softtoys=$270

I FEEL SHORT!

Annabella move over, you are spoiling the picture. (:

She pouts. He gives in.

Went to send Angeline off at Changi Airport yesterday. Angline take care and all the best!

Its just one of those days where you stop in your track and think, who are the ones that would always be there for you? Thanks, guys.

Because the truth will be exposed some day. Of what a b!tch you actually are. Of how many people you have hurt. Of what you have actually done. Till then, I rest my case.